Cancer and Relationships

Relationships. As much as I share on social media, I hardly share anything about this topic online.  Reasons not too morphed over the years.  Now, no longer.  It is with a deep understanding of differences amidst the same desired fundamentals and the value of learning through conversations. So, in the interest of full disclosure about…

I’m Alive Post-Transplant

I know it’s been a while since I’ve updated. Truth is, this round of intensive chemotherapy plus stem cell transplant hit me a lot harder than I thought it would.  I mean, there were days where I could barely open my eyes and utter a word.  I was hardly processing any of my own thoughts,…

Stem Cell Transplant – Em’s Hospital Stay Diary

Day -13 As in 13 days until the day of my stem cell transplant/bone marrow transplant (STC/BMT) for Acute Myeloid Leukaemia. Admission, prep, deposit. Prior to being admitted today, I had a scare that I wouldn’t be able to pay the 500,000 HKD deposit for this transplant.  Once again, the people around me pulled through…

My Biggest Fight of 2018

A bone marrow transplant is finally happening. This transplant chemo is the hardest ’bout yet and while the journey to recovering from a BMT looks long, challenging and financially stressful from another year of no work, it does come with the hope that my chances of surviving Acute Myeloid Leukaemia are boosted.  I’m quite stoked…

“What Can The Rest of Us Do?”

  A continuation of the last video on why is it not easy matching bone marrow like blood type. LEARN.   SHARE.   DISCUSS. ——- Now, what does deadlifting have to do with cancer? Well, what do people running marathons, white collar boxing and growing moustaches have to do with cancer? Same intention, different movement. (and we’re…

Asian Identity Got Real

A Chinese born in Malaysia. A Malaysian. An American influenced Malaysian Chinese.  A Malaysian Chinese previously married to a Caucasian American and a Caucasian British/English/United Kingdomners/whatever is the correct term for such a confusing national identity thus me perceived as white-washed or having a “racial type”.  Note, I wasn’t married to both of them at…

Does Being Young Mean Cancer Won’t Get You

“You’re young! You’ll be fine” Dude, I FEEL fine.  I FEEL strong. Leukaemia?   But I could parrot that all day and I still can’t stop the thoughts of “what the fuck if…” I’m left with 2 choices: drown in those thoughts… OR channel that shit and do something useful.  Hence the videos and incessant…

My Summer Room of 2018

This Summer, I’ve checked in several times for a room with a view of Lamma Island. Upon the last hospital discharge, here’s a little on how I get on with Geoff Bland at Joint Dynamics for the REBUILD & RESTORE journey (Chronic Disease Management).   Some of the shots filmed by Adam Tan.   SO…

Nutrition & Training DO Matter for My Leukemia Journey

We ARE our worst critics, aren’t we. There I was (still am), with more time on my hands. Yet, I lacked the discipline and drive to work on what it takes for better body composition (but I flippin’ do now!)  Some might joke that cancer should mean guaranteed weight loss but dude, that shit don’t last…

Bone Marrow Donor Drive in Malaysia

SO PROUD of these humans I call family ❤ THIS event is a fundraiser AND a bone marrow donor drive in Kuala Lumpur. We’ve heard lots about blood drives but not so much about bone marrow drives.  Learn why bone marrow donations are needed to save lives HERE. Organized by Viva Vertical    |   …

Cancer on Social Media

What I don’t tell you on my Facebook and Instagram posts… … that I cried in bed alone last night, woke with swollen eyes feeling shitty, yet managed to pull myself together nonetheless because I was meeting Jonathan Fung at Warrior Hong Kong, who believed in me enough to offer his time. I can feel my time there…

Mind the Smashing

Today, I felt closer to myself.  Let’s elaborate.  It has been years of hearing the word “meditation”.  Of course, I was constantly surrounding myself with millennial stimulants  If it weren’t for Youtube, I’d have music on, or a podcast, or consume social media, or something else that doesn’t give the mind a break.  They were fillers…